Yes, there is much for you to feel badly about Dear One.

There are many reasons for you to be sad.

And there is a lot for you to be angry, hurt, disappointed, distressed, and resentful about too.

If those are the things that you want to choose to give your attention to, to focus on, then by all means go right ahead and do so.

But you should know that there are just as many joyful, peaceful, inspiring, loving, hopeful, helpful, good feeling options available to you as well, whenever you are ready to choose them.